the adventures of jonathan broadbent

The Adventures of Jonathan Broadbent

Jonathan Broadbent admitted total defeat. Not surrender, defeat. Surrender implies he’d been engaged in battle, but he hadn’t. That was an illusion he’d created and maintained his whole life long, a way to make it appear he was engaged in battle and thereby avoid being engaged in battle.

He knew next to nothing about how things worked. To learn how things worked was a trap. There was an element of collusion involved. An implied agreement. Tacit cooperation. A cloying false brotherhood.

He was without allegiance, even when he put on the uniform they shoved into his hands, picked up his weapon, and began shooting things. When they back you into a corner, smile, shake hands, sign anything they put in front of you, and keep your eye open for the first chance to split.

But the life had drained out of it. He’d been running on the nervous energy of a penetrating insight he’d had when he was five years old, and now that energy was depleted, leaving him face to face with himself. He had defeated himself, and the realization was as penetrating as the insight he’d had when he was five, but without the energy.

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