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the nature of god #1 & #2

The Nature of God #1

Bitterness
is a
form of
atheism.

The Nature of God #2

God is not tired of us, God is tired of God and has been since the moment the Void struck a dissonant chord and jazz was born.

God is jazz. God is dissonance. God is the Void’s counterpoint. The rest is all nonsense.

We are God’s nonsense, his thumb twiddlers, children of the brooding afterthought. His Twinkies, loaded down with artificial sweetener. We are duplicates, triplicates, the multitude clambering for loaves and fishes. Three billion fishies in an itsy-bitsy pool, swimming like mad for the dam.

We are phase three in a chain-reaction mystery.

It’s all ravaged and sullied, even the Void. The whole shebang stinks of skunk.

This is just a little note that I’ll leave under the sugar shaker on my way out the door.

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the pied piper of politics

The Pied Piper of Politics

Deviled ham and pickled pigs feet. What’s the next move once the ballpoint runs dry? A tantrum, a conniption fit? The glass slipper slipped smoothly on the foot of the hot babe with blue eyes, and the ugly sisters were out of a job. Unemployment soars in the land of fairytales once beauty catches the fair prince’s eye.

***

Recently someone emailed me that Obama is the Miles Davis of politics. “Whoa now,” I replied. “I don’t think so.”

I was told to see it as poetry, but I saw it as packaging, and a few days later a limo picked me up and drove me to the Ramada Inn where a delegation divided evenly between Blacks, Asians, men, women and gays was waiting for me in rowed seats in the banquet hall–they’d been flown in and were bankrolled by an anonymous tax-exempt corporation.

I was directed to a chair facing the delegation, and the spokesperson, a well-dressed Asian male with a strain of black blood who wore a Gay Power button on his lapel gave me a lecture on the small-print responsibility of free speech. He wrapped it up by declaring that the delegation was there in the spirit of unity and conciliation, and to talk some sense into me.

“I don’t think you understand what I meant,” I said. “But then a society whose definition of itself is itself packaging wouldn’t.”

That set them off. A young woman in the front row wearing sandals and a gingham dress with a garland of flowers in her long blond hair sprang to her feet. “Your reasoning is specious and your credentials are suspect!” she called out in a strong, ringing voice reminiscent of Joan Baez in her heyday.

“Yeah, white man,” said someone in the back row. “Get a life.”

“Now, now,” said the spokesperson. “Ebony and ivory. We’re all brothers and sisters under the skin.” And then, turning his attention back to me and leaning in close: “You can blow any tune you want on your busted-up bugle, but don’t expect to get gigs.”

“That sounds like a threat,” I said, and he sighed.

“We’re going to leave now,” he said. “We’ve done all we can. But we want you to have this token of our good will and our hope for a better tomorrow.”

He pressed a large lapel button into my hand. On it Obama was bent back at the waist with his eyes closed, blowing a trumpet. Children sat at his feet, their eyes glistening in rapture. “Wear it,” said the spokesperson. “It will give your life meaning.”

“He looks like the Pied Piper,” I called after them as they filed out of the banquet hall, but they kept right on going.

When I got back outside, the limo that had picked me up was nowhere in sight.

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one zany moment

One Zany Moment

Sometimes the magic works, sometimes it doesn’t. An old refrain, a haunting string of repetitions that border on hypnosis, used sometimes like a hammer, sometimes like a feather. Used as an exorcism to flush out cultural toxins, to pull the mask off the old Lone Ranger, to gain purchase on the white cliffs of Dover, to set the stage for Act I, for Act II, for unharnessed action.

Right now it’s the ravages of a hard day’s work that I need to exorcise, the sharp pain in the gut, shoulders and back, that and a string of people who feed off what’s left of me, that and the abrasive marching band down on the college infield, their banging and clanging floating up this hill on the wind, that and a few hundred thousand bugs, swarming in the dusty light of the sun.

I sidestep it all, and for one zany moment magic streaks thru the tide pool of my mind, like minnows in moonlight.

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the origin of words

THE ORIGIN OF WORDS

Although no one knows the origin of the word, the dildo has been around since the 1500s. It has something to do with knights in shining armor and crusading kings absent from the castle for years on end.

There is a direct link between the dildo and the chastity belt, sometimes known as the jaws of death. Which may or may not be linked to the Jaws of Life, brawn machinery that can bite into a mangled automobile and extract a fair damsel who was driving with her boyfriend’s head buried between her thighs when the accident occurred, right through the red light with glazed eyes.

And then the condom came along, another word with obscure origins, dating back to the 1700s. Something began to fade with the coming of the condom–a saber in a scabbard has no romance; it’s the sound of it being drawn that brings it to life and makes the maiden sigh, the sun glinting off its tempered steel.

A giant step into the future, and we arrive at the pill.
Safe sex, random sex, barrier-breaking sex. Along comes a spider and sits down beside her. “How about me?” says the spider, wanting in on the action. He wraps all eight legs around her, which makes her tingle all over, like this is what she’s been waiting for ever since men began dragging her into caves by the hair. The spider whips out a dildo and goes to work.

“Bill mustn’t know,” she moans, and flings her chastity belt across the room.

The spider doesn’t reply. This is new for him too. He’s worried about getting his head bitten off at the moment of climax. He starts spinning web, a geometry of love. Wait until the Pope in Rome finds out. Edicts will rain down on the faithful like hail stones.

Syphilis and AIDS, sheep and monkeys, what new scourge lies just over the promiscuous horizon? The damsel doesn’t care. She’s been swept away.

Bill comes homes from his business trip. “Take me,” she says, her blood crazy with spider lust.

Bill draws his saber and thrusts.

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the many hats of the contrary

The 1917 AB Dick mimeo on which many Vagabond Press books and issues of Vagabond Magazine were printed...

The 1917 AB Dick mimeo on which many Vagabond Press books and issues of Vagabond Magazine were printed…

THE MANY HATS OF THE CONTRARY

He made doodles in the margins of thesis papers, curlicues on the scores of great symphonies, mustaches on the nighttime paintings of Hopper.

One day he’d comb his hair like James Dean, the next he’d dye it blond and fluff it into an Afro.

He worked as a stevedore, a hit man and a short order cook.

He married once, divorced twice, and never fathered children.

He enlisted in the marines, the air force and the army all in one day and then hopped a freighter to Rio with a suitcase full of uniforms.

Women didn’t like him but slept with him anyway.

He was bald by the time he reached forty and the last anyone heard of him he was selling cobras to prison guards.

If you’re wondering how he could marry once and divorce twice you haven’t understood a word I’ve said.

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the magic moment

THE MAGIC MOMENT

New car, old car,the glistening promise of a 20-year life span, a world at war sues for peace, an Arkansas mountain boy sooies for pigs, contentment laced with downers, serenity hammered out in 12 easy steps, words in the bingo cage of your mind, ejected into the palm of your hand. Under the B, and you spring to your feet. “Bingo!” you cry. “Oh, bingo…”

An old man clears his throat of phlegm and an old woman farts as softly as a baby’s gurgle. The hall goes as still as morning and you stand with your winning card in your hand, the magic moment fading much faster than it took to arrive.

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